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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

long time no blog :)

Things in the Jones house have been pretty busy, but I'm going to try to do better at blogging even if it's only once a month. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm not even going to attempt to post all the pictures from that. Mom and Dad came out to visit right before Christmas and had a lot of fun. I had my first followup at MD Anderson, and it went well. The doctor seems to think things look good. I'll go back again in June.

Brad got transferred to another Amegy branch in Houston, and he has been staying super busy. I've been working prn a day or two a week in pediatric private duty nursing, but I'll be starting a full time internship in an ICU starting Jan 10th. I'm very excited! Brody is going to a little Montessori school, and Archer stays at a lady's house in a nearby neighborhood. They are both growing so fast and keep us smiling all the time! Brody LOVES "Monte school", and he is learning SO much!

Happy 2011 to everyone. God blessed us greatly in 2010, and we look forward to what's in store!


Monday, September 27, 2010

September 27, 2010

For the past 55 days I, my family, and my friends have thought I had cancer...

Today I went to MD Anderson for what was originally appointments to plan out my 6 weeks of radiation. However, I didn't think the news I would get was even possible...

Turns out, yes there was the tiny glandular tumor near my eyebrow. But after MUCH more researching in the pathology department, they seem to believe now that the original tumor AND the "cancer"/remaining tumor that my surgeon removed in the 2nd surgery are benign (NOT cancerous).

Basically what started as the most horrible phone call of my life saying, "The doctor wants to discuss your biopsy results. Can you bring a family member?"... in his office the next day him telling me, "You have adenocarcinoma (CANCER) that could have metastasized from any organ in your body"...to being treated at MD Anderson and them saying, "It's adnexal carcinoma (CANCER) and we feel that brow site is the only and primary site"...to "there were CANCER cells in the margin from your surgery"...to today- when the surgeon says "the pathologists now believe you have a benign mixed tumor called pleomorphic adenoma. Radiation will not be necessary".

Wow. I would say I can't believe it, but I do believe it- because GOD DOES the UNBELIEVABLE.

We are relieved and feel the weight of the world off our shoulders. I have learned so many lessons throughout this journey of a "cancer patient". I've told my family I want to write a book...

I know what it feels like that day you find out.
I know how the morning and the night are the hardest part of the day.
I know how to tell people you love them every chance you get, hold your husband's hand, kiss your babies faces off every chance you get.
I know how fear creeps in to try to run away your faith.
I know how out of control and helpless you feel.
I know what it's like to wonder if your tiny boys will remember you.
I know what it's like to see your family cry, and have to be tough anyway.
I know what it's like to play out every "what if" scenario possible.
I know what it's like to wake up every day searching for the story God wants to play out.

BUT I ALSO know Jesus. I know He is good and faithful. And I know He loves me. And now, though it wouldn't have been the way I would have chosen, He has given me a story to tell the world.

Whether I had cancer before, and God miraculously changed those pathology slides. Or whether it was never there to begin with...it doesn't matter. God has shown me, and I hope all who have walked through this with me, that if you turn your heart, soul, everything to Him He WILL take care of you...and in my case "heal me" of the cancer I never had.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

BIGGEST UPDATE yet

NO RADIATION!!! (more details after my appointment at MDA Monday) but my surgeon informed me yesterday after much debate they think this is not malignant...NOT CANCER. Didnt I say God still performs miracles?! It has happened. Believe. Hope. Thank you for your prayers! God is bigger than "cancer". The top cancer hospital did surgery and was about to start radiation. Only God! I bet He is smiling.


We don't even know how to wrap our minds around this. We have lab reports saying I had cancer. I had surgery. I was about to have radiation. Numerous doctors at MD Anderson reviewed my case. Like I said- only God can explain!!! We are so relieved, so blessed, and so thankful. To God be all glory

Saturday, September 11, 2010

update on radiation

My surgeon from MD Anderson called with the details of the pathology report...the newer set of cancer cells were near the edge of the biopsy, which means it was probably trying to spread. Radiation is definite now. It most likely will be Monday-Friday for 6 weeks beginning in October. I will be going to an appointment with the MDA doctor in charge of my radiation sometime in the next week or two. After that we should know more details. Please pray for the boys and those that will help take care of them...our God is still Healer! Love you all

Friday, September 3, 2010

Thursday, September 2, 2010

results

We went to our followup appointment at MD Anderson today, and were hoping for pathology results from my surgery last Friday. The lab is still working on them, and they are not complete and reported. However, my surgeon called and spoke with the pathologist working on the case...The tissue was not free and clear of cancer cells unfortunately. The pathologist told her a preliminary determination that a "nest of cancer cells" were found. Basically what this means is that, outside of the tumor/cyst itself, cancer cells made their way into surrounding tissue. The surgeon can't just keep going back in and cutting and cutting with surgeries, so that's where radiation comes into play. Hopefully it will kill what cancer cells are remaining in that surrounding tissue near the site of the tumor itself that was removed. Sooooo it sounds like I'll be starting radiation sometime in the next month. My surgeon at MD Anderson will let me know when the path report is finalized and she has more details, which might be sometime next week. I will go see her for another followup in 2 weeks, so I feel like we'll know something for sure by then.

I was hoping that today she would walk in and say "There was nothing! This is over". However, I am not that surprised because cancer is such a tricky, complicated thing. I have felt somewhat discouraged today, BUT I know with God's help I will find peace and endurance to stick this out a little longer. There's just something unsettling about knowing cancer is in your body. It doesn't matter how big or small it is...you just don't want it there at all. I ask for continued prayers and encouragement because I believe that's what's gotten me this far.
I am confident my faith will conquer my fear (as I've read numerous times in cancer devotionals lately). As a sweet friend made the point today "Even if the doctors keep stacking the odds against you, it just means God will get to show His glory even more" (Thanks Suzanne!)

Love you all

Saturday, August 28, 2010

surgery and such

First I have to post pictures of PRECIOUS, smiling, almost-3-month-old Archer!










And a few pictures of our surgery day at MD Anderson. I had heard before we went that MDA is its own little city, and it is. There are even computer things that are kind of like mapquest that you enter where you're trying to go- it tells you how to get there, what elevator, floor, and approximate "walking time"! It's pretty awesome. So here's a quick picture I snapped as we headed in on surgery day...





Us about 7:00 am that morning heading out our front door



Me and Brody- he had just woken up so he was sad I was leaving :(



my good luck shoes and socks


in the holding area before I got taken to the operating room- notice my special pillowcase, courtesy of DeeDi (homemade!)



and I left out the yucky, nasty post-surgery pictures of my eye because I figured yall might be grossed out...



and home sweet home- me and my little man reading "Where the Wild Things Are" tonight


and last but not least- Brody the yard guy- goggles and all



Please pray this week for the results we get on Thursday....


Thank you again for the continuous prayers, texts, calls, emails, etc. We can't respond to all of them but we've done our best! God has been with us during this difficult, scary time. We have felt His heavenly love here on earth through all of you, and we are grateful. I do not know how we could have gotten through this without Him, our families, and our friends.
I wish everyone could know what I know now...that we serve a God who calms the storms, moves mountains, makes the blind to see and the deaf to hear, and uses cancer for HIS GLORY. There were some dark days and nights when I woke up every hour at 2, 3, 4, 5 o'clock in the morning- and all I could do was cry and pray. And He listened. I know God in a new way, and I wish I could put it into words but it's impossible...awesome, amazing, full of mercy and grace, healer, Father... WITH ME WHEREVER I GO no matter how scary and dark it gets. I believe it, and I hope you all do too.

Friday, August 27, 2010

home

The surgery went smoothly. The incision is from the top if my eyelid and up through the outer part of my eyebrow. Hopefully this allowed her to "get it all". We will find out next Thursday about the pathology and if radiation will be happening. Thank yall for praying, and please continue to pray for good, clear results next week. Home resting so this will be the last post for a little while. I have to say it again-GOD IS MIGHTY AND AWESOME. HE IS WORTHY OF ALL OUR PRAISE. MAY THIS BE USED TO SHOW HIS GLORY. I truly understand faith now- believing what you can't see. God showed me and my family how He blessed us when we do this. We are thankful for this amazing outcome. Love yall.